I feel like crap.

you might have noticed that i’m not blogging that often anymore. you could say that to be quite polite. but the fact that i haven’t been blogging for almost 3 weeks now is just due to many disturbances, but mostly because of me. i know. sue me.

the procrastinating part of my brain is clearly up and running these past few weeks. i’ve been putting off blogging for as long as i can remember. exaggerating? maybe. hahaha.

recent events really took a toll on me. most of which hit me really hard. and even up to now, these things happening has been circulating my mind for the past few days. even though, they say that all of it is said and done. i think that i never found closure. most of those things confuse me. and some of those things weren’t that apparent to me at that time. some of it, i never knew existed.

maybe it’s just me being naive, thinking that everything is all dandy and fine. clearly i was wrong. which lead to me breaking down. this would be the first time for so long. me breaking down isn’t something you normally would see, and definetely something you woudn’t want to see. haha.

it’s in my nature to suppress or hold in every emotion that i don’t want people to see. and bottling all these up would result to me sobbing like hell. and people who know me would rarely see me cry.

that’s how hard these things hit me.

TOO BAD I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO WRITE ALL OF THESE THINGS DOWN! damn me.

i will try to recount these events in my future entries.

but in the mean time..

summer’s here. what joy.

it’s officially summer. i should know. the heat’s been unbearable, my sleeping time’s all messed up, i’m slowly rotting away into a world ruled by sheer dulness, i haven’t seen my friends for the longest time, and i’m gaining the pounds by the minute.

kill me.

I MISS MY 2B!