things just don’t work out like the way you planned

Congratulations to the newly elected Junior Council Officers. i know you’re gonna do one heck of a job with our batch’s third year. even with the looming fear of the Cheering Competition and Prom, i know you’ll work your butts off for us, so i shouldn’t worry too much. our batch is in loony but good hands. hahaha.

by now, as hard and heart-breaking as it is, i’ve accepted defeat. this was the first time i ran for something that big, for that matter, ran for anything. hahahaha. i would’ve really wanted to serve the batch. i would’ve really wanted to be active and be a part of something important, something that gives me the chance to do something for progress or change. but know that i lost, maybe i can channel all these urges to other things.

but, i reeeeeaaaaalllllllyyy wanted this so bad.

sometimes, things just don’t work out like the way you planned.

the moment that i saw the results of the election and saw that i lost, i didn’t feel anything. for the first time in my life, i was empty. i wasn’t angry. i wasn’t sad. i wasn’t dissapointed. i was just empty. but as time progressed, i started to feel something. i felt that i could’ve done better. i felt that i let my partymates down. i let myslef down. maybe this is something that i have to change in myself, that i put tremendous amount of pressure on myself. i have to change.

and again, after a lot of contemplation, i realized that all those emotions were just brought about shock, but i soon got over them.

and i realized, that i’m not that dissapointed because i lost to someone who is actually capable of doing the job. he’s a great person. he’s very approachable and friendly. and he never let the fact that we ran against each other come between us with our friendship and getting the job done. 

Kei, make me proud. hahahahahaha. 

well that’s it. my AGOS days maybe over but i’ll forever carry with me this experience which taught me a lot about myself, my friends and leadership.

i consider myself really blessed. 

Goodluck to the Junior Council next year. you have some of the best people in position, so make the most out of it.

and thanks to the people who supported and voted for me. to the people who keep coming up to me and keep telling me that they voted for me really means a lot to me.

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PS: this blog entry is coming from a person who just lost an election. how optimistic can you get?! haha.