what a f*cking lame title. hahahaha. that’s how boring my days are getting that i can’t even come up with a simple title for a blog entry. i’ve been sulking the house all day long; watching tv, stuffing my face with every food imaginable, using the computer, watching more tv. a sad life, I know. there’s nothing to look forward to anymore. no more seeing my friends. no more intelligent and wacky conversations. no more nothing. I’m basically driven into a life of solitary confinement. hahahaha. but something new, not really new, but something exciting came up while I was rummaging through our DVD collections. I found my Grey’s Anatomy dvds. and so.. my marathon begins. hahahahaha. oh how I missed walking down the halls of Seattle Grace. hahahaha. I just can’t help watching the series over and over again. all the characters are just so funny, witty. and their relationships with each other suit my liking; romantic yet comical. and all the medical jargon I’m learning can help me in my future medical career. I wish! haha. “It’s a beautiful night to save lives.” – Derek Shepherd. plus, I heard some great news today. some people are planning a class outing to Caliraya. yey! I’m so pumped up. I need some human interaction and I’m dying to see my classmates again. never mind the swimming, I just wanna get out of the house and see all my friends. I’m freakin’ excited. how’s that for a change. hahaha.
you might have noticed that i’m not blogging that often anymore. you could say that to be quite polite. but the fact that i haven’t been blogging for almost 3 weeks now is just due to many disturbances, but mostly because of me. i know. sue me.
the procrastinating part of my brain is clearly up and running these past few weeks. i’ve been putting off blogging for as long as i can remember. exaggerating? maybe. hahaha.
recent events really took a toll on me. most of which hit me really hard. and even up to now, these things happening has been circulating my mind for the past few days. even though, they say that all of it is said and done. i think that i never found closure. most of those things confuse me. and some of those things weren’t that apparent to me at that time. some of it, i never knew existed.
maybe it’s just me being naive, thinking that everything is all dandy and fine. clearly i was wrong. which lead to me breaking down. this would be the first time for so long. me breaking down isn’t something you normally would see, and definetely something you woudn’t want to see. haha.
it’s in my nature to suppress or hold in every emotion that i don’t want people to see. and bottling all these up would result to me sobbing like hell. and people who know me would rarely see me cry.
that’s how hard these things hit me.
TOO BAD I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO WRITE ALL OF THESE THINGS DOWN! damn me.
i will try to recount these events in my future entries.
but in the mean time..
summer’s here. what joy.
it’s officially summer. i should know. the heat’s been unbearable, my sleeping time’s all messed up, i’m slowly rotting away into a world ruled by sheer dulness, i haven’t seen my friends for the longest time, and i’m gaining the pounds by the minute.
kill me.
I MISS MY 2B!
Congratulations to the newly elected Junior Council Officers. i know you’re gonna do one heck of a job with our batch’s third year. even with the looming fear of the Cheering Competition and Prom, i know you’ll work your butts off for us, so i shouldn’t worry too much. our batch is in loony but good hands. hahaha.
by now, as hard and heart-breaking as it is, i’ve accepted defeat. this was the first time i ran for something that big, for that matter, ran for anything. hahahaha. i would’ve really wanted to serve the batch. i would’ve really wanted to be active and be a part of something important, something that gives me the chance to do something for progress or change. but know that i lost, maybe i can channel all these urges to other things.
but, i reeeeeaaaaalllllllyyy wanted this so bad.
sometimes, things just don’t work out like the way you planned.
the moment that i saw the results of the election and saw that i lost, i didn’t feel anything. for the first time in my life, i was empty. i wasn’t angry. i wasn’t sad. i wasn’t dissapointed. i was just empty. but as time progressed, i started to feel something. i felt that i could’ve done better. i felt that i let my partymates down. i let myslef down. maybe this is something that i have to change in myself, that i put tremendous amount of pressure on myself. i have to change.
and again, after a lot of contemplation, i realized that all those emotions were just brought about shock, but i soon got over them.
and i realized, that i’m not that dissapointed because i lost to someone who is actually capable of doing the job. he’s a great person. he’s very approachable and friendly. and he never let the fact that we ran against each other come between us with our friendship and getting the job done.
Kei, make me proud. hahahahahaha.
well that’s it. my AGOS days maybe over but i’ll forever carry with me this experience which taught me a lot about myself, my friends and leadership.
i consider myself really blessed.
Goodluck to the Junior Council next year. you have some of the best people in position, so make the most out of it.
and thanks to the people who supported and voted for me. to the people who keep coming up to me and keep telling me that they voted for me really means a lot to me.
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PS: this blog entry is coming from a person who just lost an election. how optimistic can you get?! haha.
this goes out to two of the most wonderful persons i’ve ever met..
Happy Sweet Sixteen,
ATE JOSEPHINE and ATE ANGELA.
hahahahahahahahaha. some needed emphasis must be put on the "ATE"s. it just goes to show how much everybody’s getting freakishly old, and in so little time. the thought of you being sixteen must be overwhelming. the satisfaction of being older than most of your peers must be great, but i just can’t accept the fact that well soon join their ranks as grown-ups.
Eww. hahahahahaha.
in due time.
. . .
today went extremely well, better than most days and far better off than what i expected it to be. i had a startling wake up call, all thanks to my phone which went berserk directly infront of my ear. then, i couldn’t bear sleeping during the ride going to school. i couldn’t she off this funny feeling inside my stomach. it was a mix of excitement, anxiety, regret and determination. hahahahaha.
so when i got to school, i got immediately got into "campaign-mode". AGOS came up with all these crazy campaign ideas. we got our blue bandanas, "Fight DALOY" ribbons, flags, flyers, , stickers, everything. you could say we went all out on this one. it was our rally after all.
so we got down and had our usual FC. i noticed almost all candidates were fidgeting and muttering their speeches under their breath. hahahahaha. after a few reminders from Mrs. Hongo, we got up the stage and prepared to meet our maker. not really. hahahaha. i tend to exaggerate.
our introductions/game went by pretty fast. the crowd obviously caught up with the arrangement of the candidates. i was damn nervous before my name was called up. but when i got infront of eveybody to speak, everything stopped. i had no control of what i was saying anymore. all of which where purely based on my memorized speech. but the funny thing is, is that i wasn’t nervous anymore when i was speaking. it was a great achievement on my part, after all, it was my first time being up there.
so yeah, horay for me and my council, i mean my partymates. hahahahaha. everybody did a great time delivering their speeches. after DALOY’s campaign, both parties proceeded with the Q&A. i think our answers were ok, given the amount of time that we had, anyway. hahaha. i think i had a decent answer which was addressed to me and Guia, being newbies and all. hopefully, my answer didn’t come off as propagandist. hahahahahaha.
all and all, i think both AGOS’s and DALOY’s campaign went great. hopefully, it somehow enlightened the batch on picking the right leaders for the Junior Council next year. and hopefully majority of the winners would be from none other than..
AGOS, Achieving Greatness through Oneness and Service. hahahahahaha.
after the all the commotion, we headed back to our classrooms for the rest of our classes. most of Social’s time was eaten up by a heated discussion on Animal Rights which i got into really quickly. anyway, we only got into a small part the discussion.
Recess, Cle, Biology went pretty slow.
lunch was spent for the Filipino musical. needless to say, we tried everysong known to man just to get our script finished. our efforts proved to be bleeeeehh. hahahahaha. we only finished a quarter of the first page. hahahaha.
good thing we had Filipino after lunch. we finalized the first few parts of the script. horrraaay for us.
English was fun. we had a short discussion and Sr. Manaay scrutininzed, to say the least, the people who will be runing for Junior Council. i’m pretty glad that he did. i really got a feel that it’s gonna be a fun and nerve-wreaking election. hahahaha. then we had the practice for the English play. i was kinda new with being the prompter and all, that’s why i was told off a couple of times. oooppsss.
HE was fun. a lot of singing was going around. and people kept saying how ugly their projects were, myself included. hahahaha.
then i hitched a ride home with Lance and Trixie.
then i was home.
. . .
i’m really thankful with the progression of everything. i noticed that i’ve since became more active in the things going around. i felt i’m more intone with my inner leader, which is what i’m really after; besides aspiring to win? hahahahahaha.
YEY!
uh.. update?:))
hi jones!!!
the lyrics make for a beautiful poem. how i wish my pc’s sound device would work already!
waaa. love that song. :p
like kei, i’m a fan of both. but i can’t deny that HP is more well-written than the twilight series. 
but then again both of them got me hooked.
it’s all a matter of opinion, really. some like HP, some prefer Twilight, the rest may like some other book or series. the comparisons are all quite subjective. that’s how it is, i suppose. doesn’t change anything.
haha. i’m a fan of both series, so there’ no bias in my opinion. all i can say is how can a series at the top of this list: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_best-selling_books#Claims_of_at_least_100_million_copies not trump a series not even on this list? oh well, maybe someday. 
jones, reading your blog makes me miss those long entries. haha. anyway..
sorry i bestowed a litany upon your chatbox. guess i should’ve posted on the comments area instead. teehee. 
you might’ve anticipated that i wouldn’t NOT comment — being a HARDCORE FAN(ATIC) of something would, most possibly affect your opinion on things other than what you’re drooling over. so, let fanatics speak of what they love, and NOT throw crap about what other people love, just because it’s different. and, no, i don’t think Twilight emphasizes on crap about controlling boyfriends and detachment from humanity — obviously, the hardcore HP fanatic merely scratched the surface. Twilight’s actually about the complexities of love, the complexities THAT GO with loving someone, and the strength and potency that love holds, regardless of its victim — at least, according to me. yes, that sounded CORNY, and yes, vampires, as far as the real world can tell, do not exist. but that’s my two cents in. fathom THAT!
I like the layout:D
I missed you and I will miss you too. <3
500 people you meet in hell. First time ko marinig yun ah. It sounds interesting. haha! I might buy it. yess…you sold the book to me, jones!
heey, keep in mind that I’m a friend who listens to friends’ problems, too! let’s trade sides whenever you may need to.
magfi-feeling ako: if that message is for me, thank you very much. I’m blessed to have such beautiful, loving friends. cradle to grave.
computer crap XD
HAHAHA! gets kita! yung sa mass. 10am kami. nagyon lang ata kami umupo sa harap dahil walang tao! ))
HAHAHA. Yes besh. I-shall-not-speak-anymore was my thing last Fri )))
friendship thing IS going on overdrive. it’s that time of year. I’m really blessed to have friends like you and the gang.
best, parties are fuuun. SOMETIMES. hahaha! )
