STUDENTLEADERS and ALL THAT JAZZ

forgive me for my absence. i was away for awhile. all because of all the usual crap from school. anyway.

i wanted to discuss something rather specific today… my fascination on student leaders.

coming from the pilot class, i've gotten used to the fact that most of my classmates are part of the student councils. may it be from the year-level council or the high school council. and i just don't see how they can manage all of the things they're doing right now. it's just fascinating for me to witness something so bizzare and fascinating. i just don't see how they can do all these things, meetings, work, projects, work and more work. and still they come out at the top of the class. some of them can even maintain a social life. i should now because some of them are close friends. at first glance, you wouldn't see them as your stereotypical student leaders, those nerdy and snotty kids trying to boss everyone around. no, they're nothing like that, as far as i'm concerned. but anyway, the people i know are regular people. very mellow yet fun and outgoing.

and now i realize. they're just an amazing set of people. they strive to get what they want and get it. they're responsible and objective. they're goal-oriented. and they're mature enough to handle all the pressure and crap thrown at them. and they have the capacity to withstand all the harsh problems and annoying people that come their way. and i admire those people so much.

"i'm not worthy." but anyway. which brings me to the question…

" can i be a student leader " (at the back of my head: "of course not.")

this has been question i frequently ask myself and some very close friends. maybe because insecurity kicks in everytime this topic comes up. i dunno. but do you guys think i have the makings of becoming a student leader. do you guys think i have that capacity and sense of maturity to do what they're doing. some of you maybe lauging your butts off because of the thought of me thinking all these things. insecurity again. it's just i like the thought of me being a part of an important organization. i want to be active in school. i want to be tested to my limits. i want to be like them, the people i admire.

so do you guys think i can be a student leader?

hit me on my message board or comment on this entry. tell me what you think. honest to God, i won't get angry. 

i just really wanna know, so i can get these things off my chest.

PS: curses to the people who scared the living daylights out of me yesterday! damnation.