forgive me for my absence. i was away for awhile. all because of all the usual crap from school. anyway.
i wanted to discuss something rather specific today… my fascination on student leaders.
coming from the pilot class, i've gotten used to the fact that most of my classmates are part of the student councils. may it be from the year-level council or the high school council. and i just don't see how they can manage all of the things they're doing right now. it's just fascinating for me to witness something so bizzare and fascinating. i just don't see how they can do all these things, meetings, work, projects, work and more work. and still they come out at the top of the class. some of them can even maintain a social life. i should now because some of them are close friends. at first glance, you wouldn't see them as your stereotypical student leaders, those nerdy and snotty kids trying to boss everyone around. no, they're nothing like that, as far as i'm concerned. but anyway, the people i know are regular people. very mellow yet fun and outgoing.
and now i realize. they're just an amazing set of people. they strive to get what they want and get it. they're responsible and objective. they're goal-oriented. and they're mature enough to handle all the pressure and crap thrown at them. and they have the capacity to withstand all the harsh problems and annoying people that come their way. and i admire those people so much.
"i'm not worthy." but anyway. which brings me to the question…
" can i be a student leader " (at the back of my head: "of course not.")
this has been question i frequently ask myself and some very close friends. maybe because insecurity kicks in everytime this topic comes up. i dunno. but do you guys think i have the makings of becoming a student leader. do you guys think i have that capacity and sense of maturity to do what they're doing. some of you maybe lauging your butts off because of the thought of me thinking all these things. insecurity again. it's just i like the thought of me being a part of an important organization. i want to be active in school. i want to be tested to my limits. i want to be like them, the people i admire.
so do you guys think i can be a student leader?
hit me on my message board or comment on this entry. tell me what you think. honest to God, i won't get angry.
i just really wanna know, so i can get these things off my chest.
PS: curses to the people who scared the living daylights out of me yesterday! damnation.
shit happens, especially to me. sorry for me being self-absorbed today. it's just all my crappyness has been going around. and I have alot of things that need to be mentioned, like:
my not so recent meltdown(dated November 16)
APAC Youth Festival
and the usual rants about teachers, projects, and quizzes
songfest-mania. well for some of us.
it's just so stressful to deal with all these things all at once. I'm just gonna throw this out there. I haven't been near the television for almost gawd knows when. and that is very disturbing for TV addict like me.
everything seems to be building up and will suddenly expode into a whole mess of crap.
hoping for things to mellow down. so everyone can get on with there usual lives.
sorry, this is crap. GAWD freakin' BIO homework!!!
sorry.
reminder: if ever i have any grammatical errors, please! do not hesitate to correct me. laitlaitin niyo na ako, okay lang. alam ko naman di ako marunong mag-spell. SANDWHICH?! haha.
moving on. today was mellow-ish. english was surprisingly cool and relaxed. except for that exercise. the rest of the subjects we had today was blaaahhhh. nothing exciting really happened today. except for bio. we had our new lab partners. goodbye klara and feb. hello jr and pat. haha. this group is going to be fun. lunch with the nerds. the off with research. we headed for the library. i liked the "swipe-card-thingy" bigla nalang lalabas muka mo. haha. it's hell, trying to find a respectable research topic is not that easy. thand God the apac delegates were excused for the rest of the day…
we had another run through with the songs we're gonna sing. headed by the new music teacher, and my new club moderator. they say first impression lasts, well it did for me. and i am scared to hell. haha. everything after that basically sucks.
somethings are just not meant to be heard by other people. i'm gonna keep this one for myself.
goodluck to the delegates tomorrow. hopefully we'll have the best of times. pray that they have decent bathrooms. soft beds and great food. i'm not going to eat anything weird. haha.
sorry for this lame entry. i can't blog about one specific thing anymore. i need to check my stuff for tomorrow. as i continue with this blog, everyminute i'm slowly being reduced into a blob.
so, away with you.
words cannot describe how these past few days were incredibly stressful. but i can try.
my absence from blogging yesterday was caused by my notebook copying OCness. one of my weakest points in life. haha. writing like a freakin' sloth. anyway.
[nov.6]the apac delegates were spent in solitary confinement in the lecture room. the whole day was spent in practicing songs for the activity on friday. plus practicing on making this "candle holder/box" thing which was made alot easier thanks to michael.woots. anyway. father joel taught us the complicated infinity formation. then proceeded to the CCs to try it out. our efforts were nonetheless satisfactory. on the downside, our candle boxes were crunched to a pulp.
father joel said we were good at the end. 
after the practice, we rested for awhile in the lecture room. thank God for airconditioning. mrs malinao gave us some not so engaging reminders of the place we were headed for. so much for clean bathrooms and soft beds[MATRES]. haha. then she sent us off.
the stress began there. finding out that i kinda missed alot. i was panicking with all the load dumped on us.:p
today was spent mostly inside the classroom. boring discussions and stressful biology lessons. ATPs and pyruvic acids anyone? the only exciting things about today was the Broken Dreams play and RHGP.
the play was breathtaking-ish. minus the weird frog dance and the peekaboo incident.
"I see London, I see France, I see Julia's underpants." haha
they were really dramatic and theatrical in there movements. i like those things to be in any play or presentation i watch. their stunts were scary and very imaginative at the same time. sorry for my lame description of the play. don't trust a person who couldn't write a decent review to save his life. haha. anyways it was really good. anyway. RHGP was embarrassing. the game was "pass the fiber box truth or dare game". i got called out and mrs G made me do the frog dance. but they made up for the embarrassing moments with more embarrassing and more kilig moments for other people. thank God. haha.
i'm gonna stop this now. it's getting lamer by the minute.
PS: i don't know if you guys remember this but i once said in a blog that…
i would like to remind you, the one reading this, i would drive myself from the usual "retelling-of-my-day" thing. no offense to people who do that. but it just doesn't work for me anymore. so i would just spontaneously write things that would pop in my head. so here goes..
today i clearly violated what i previously said. so damn me. haha.
for today's entry, i feel to discuss 2 specific topics.. anyway, here goes..
i wanted you all to know about this girl i've been watching for the past few weeks in Youtube. she's Natalie and she video blogs about things that just make me sick from laughing. this is her page link: communitychannel. so if you like witty, funny Vietnamese "retail-slut"(direct quote from her.haha) she's your girl. i've been hooked on her videos because she's so outspoken and witty. and she tackles things that usually don't interest me but i find it very hard to stop watching her videos. she throws random things at you and you just laugh with no apparent reason. anyway. i admit her mannerisms(is that the right word?) are rubbing off me. which is i admit kinda lame. anyway. i particularly like her video on IDs, so you guys should check her out.
and the other thing i wanted to talk about was wicked. i think i overheard my classmate, i can't remember who(sorry), mentioning something about a musical where there's a witch and flying involved. so i checked it out. and i really thought it was awsome. soo, that's one of the other videos i spend hours looking for on youtube. i particularly like the song defying gravity. it's this amazing scene where elphaba, the wicked witch, like the title says defy gravity. it was an awsome production. she(Idina Menzel) actually got a tony for it. (sorry na). you should check it out. honestly, i'm watching it right now. haha
and i'm reading the book where the musical was based on. soo, yah.
i'm gonna write a separate blog for it. it's just too long and amazing. haha.
and today was the first class after sembreak. teachers don't really give us a days rest. lessons and seatworks for the first day. but one good thing about this day was activity hour. the APAC delegates had a meeting. Father Joel was crazy me, guia and jo couldn't stop laughing. the people infront took a shot in doing this infinity thing. practiced songs for the activity on the first day of the convention. then went home with bestfriend. (made kwento. haha.)
certain things happened today which i expected. you can't really stray from it happening.
hoping for things to get better.
uh.. update?:))
hi jones!!!
the lyrics make for a beautiful poem. how i wish my pc’s sound device would work already!
waaa. love that song. :p
like kei, i’m a fan of both. but i can’t deny that HP is more well-written than the twilight series. 
but then again both of them got me hooked.
it’s all a matter of opinion, really. some like HP, some prefer Twilight, the rest may like some other book or series. the comparisons are all quite subjective. that’s how it is, i suppose. doesn’t change anything.
haha. i’m a fan of both series, so there’ no bias in my opinion. all i can say is how can a series at the top of this list: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_best-selling_books#Claims_of_at_least_100_million_copies not trump a series not even on this list? oh well, maybe someday. 
jones, reading your blog makes me miss those long entries. haha. anyway..
sorry i bestowed a litany upon your chatbox. guess i should’ve posted on the comments area instead. teehee.
you might’ve anticipated that i wouldn’t NOT comment — being a HARDCORE FAN(ATIC) of something would, most possibly affect your opinion on things other than what you’re drooling over. so, let fanatics speak of what they love, and NOT throw crap about what other people love, just because it’s different. and, no, i don’t think Twilight emphasizes on crap about controlling boyfriends and detachment from humanity — obviously, the hardcore HP fanatic merely scratched the surface. Twilight’s actually about the complexities of love, the complexities THAT GO with loving someone, and the strength and potency that love holds, regardless of its victim — at least, according to me. yes, that sounded CORNY, and yes, vampires, as far as the real world can tell, do not exist. but that’s my two cents in. fathom THAT!
I like the layout:D
I missed you and I will miss you too. <3
500 people you meet in hell. First time ko marinig yun ah. It sounds interesting. haha! I might buy it. yess…you sold the book to me, jones!
heey, keep in mind that I’m a friend who listens to friends’ problems, too! let’s trade sides whenever you may need to.
magfi-feeling ako: if that message is for me, thank you very much. I’m blessed to have such beautiful, loving friends. cradle to grave.
computer crap XD
HAHAHA! gets kita! yung sa mass. 10am kami. nagyon lang ata kami umupo sa harap dahil walang tao! ))
HAHAHA. Yes besh. I-shall-not-speak-anymore was my thing last Fri )))
friendship thing IS going on overdrive. it’s that time of year. I’m really blessed to have friends like you and the gang.
best, parties are fuuun. SOMETIMES. hahaha! )
